Be a wise Emotions Collector

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Today is a tiring day. I met a lot of inspiring people.  The roads that they are walking made me wonder about the path of my mysterious future. With all the uncertainties ahead, I wish a fairy could come up to me and point me to different right directions.

However, reality doesn’t allow fantasy to appear as we usually wish. We have to take risks and walk every steps carefully alone. Sometimes, a guardien angel from nowhere may guide you through hard times. But at most of the time, you have to deal it by yourselves.

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We experience different things and face different people every day. Either it sucks or it brightens up your day. You meet people with different unique characteristics. They may like you, or hurt you. That is why our emotions fluctuate from time to time.

Today, I am described to be an emotions collector. Well, I wonder if I should regard this as a postive or negative term? Lol Anyways, emotions collector means your emotions are easily trapped and recalled every time you think of a particular person/an experience that you overcame even after a long period of time. Little things could make me happy, while minor stuffs could also make me feel sad for a whole day at the same time. Most of the time, I just wish somebody could come over and give me a hug, telling me everything’s gotta be fine.

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To be carefree and happy, all we have to do is to let go. It is easy to say it while it’s hard to actually DO it. Letting go of emotions are not easy, especially when you drag on the memories that you wish to stay. But you gotta admit in the reality, those memories that you drag on actually doesn’t exist anymore, never and ever. Happy memories are surely deserved to be retained,  while the disturbing ones will just trouble you meaninglessly.

Therefore, I wish, I could learn to be a little stronger every day. May God be with me as always, grant me confidence and walk through the shades. Guys, lets just hang in there for a while more. You will be fine. I promise.

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Reminiscence

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「有些人 在心底從來沒忘記」
There are someone who you could never forget.

Time passes, people change but memories don’t. Good and bad memories bring tears, and words can’t replace feelings. Goodbyes will always hurt but pictures can never replace being there.

He once said to me, “if it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience.”
I didn’t understand the meaning behind it at that moment. But when time passes, I start to become crystal clear about this simple but true saying. The person who told me this has left, however, if life grants me to choose once again, I’d do it all over again, no regrets.

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Reminiscence is always emotional. You think of moments that had happened with people you couldn’t forget. You think of them because they no longer exist in your life anymore. Sometimes you miss them too much and you thought that dreams were reality. In fact, you dream because there is no other way you could see it happen again.

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Sometimes, reminiscence makes me sad because of broken promises.

“Some people don’t understand the promises they’re making when they make them,” I said.
“Right, of course. But you keep the promise anyway. That’s what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway.”

Indeed, if promises are made to break, please don’t make them. Some people are hard to trust people because they have lost courage to trust again after disappointments.

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Promises can be beautiful. At least, I still believe it exists in true love. A person who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation.
「若愛,請深愛;
若棄,請徹底。
不要曖昧,傷人傷己。」
“If you love,love deeply.
If you abandon, please do thoroughly.
Don’t be ambiguous, it’s harmful to both.”

With love,
Ange Gardien xx

Cherish the moment

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Life is unexpected. You never know what will happen in the next minute. And that’s the reason why we are making decisions every day. Yet, there are decisions that we’ll live to regret. Some regrets could be fixed if we endeavor to make a change. However, there are some regrets that could never ever go back.

I am inspired by a recent Youtube video uploaded by a Dad (the link is down below), whose son passed away when he served in the armed force. His son has a sweet girlfriend and they have been together for four years, and planning to get married in 2012. Unfortunately, the war took away their son, their friend, and her boyfriend.

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It touches my heart while seeing how his Dad misses his son so much. He requested for help from public in order to get a “look back” video from Facebook, just for getting over death of a loved one to cope with death or grief.

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It reminds me of a personal reflection. Did I spend enough time for the loved ones who are worthy to me? Every time I think of death, I kinda freak out a little bit. It is not because I have never overcome death before, I did went to my uncle’s funeral. And that experience reminded me the sadness of losing somebody you have talked to. No matter how much you wanted to show your kindness and love to them, you are never granted a chance anymore.

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From now on, I just want myself to bare one thing in my mind every day – CHERISH the ones you love and those who love you. Because you never know when they won’t be there anymore.

“Life is short, live it.
Love is rare, grab it.
Fear is mind-killer, face it.
Memories are sweet, cherish them.”

Yes, there are some regrets that have already pasted in our life, and we can do nothing but to let go. Maybe you can try to think in this way. If you haven’t experienced regrets, you will never learn to cherish. Right?

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Sometimes, you didn’t choose to let somebody vanish in your life, they entered your lives and walked away because of some reasons that you can’t figure out. In the meantime, you start to realize that many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true ones will leave footprints in your heart. This is one of the most valuable lesson what life teaches us.

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So yeah, be thankful everyday of who’s around and paying attention on you, and giving their greatest love to you. Start with parents who made you the person you become today. They are pretty much the only two people in the world who can offer you unconditional love. Cherish and love your parents. Kiss them and hold their hands, like how they did when you were little. =)

With love,
Ange Gardien xx

Alone V.S. Lonely

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Tick Tok Tick Tok. A second, a minute, an hour, a day goes by…

Waiting implies patience. Everybody has experienced waiting, no matter how long it takes.  Waiting for the heated toast, waiting for a phone call, waiting for somebody, waiting for hope… Some people give up because they are fed up of waiting for a long period of time. While some people insist to wait till what they expected to come, and of course, the process of waiting is torturing and it requires a lot of patience and perseverance.

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Despite the above two kinds of people, some people choose to take alternatives that is under their expectations during waiting. In which, it is apparent to the case of love.  A girl has been wishing to meet her ideal one some day in her life. Unfortunately, she has been waiting for years after the previous relationship, and still hasn’t met the right one.  Inevitably, loneliness visits her easily. She tries hard to hide her loneliness, such as hanging out with friends, reading books, learning new stuffs…  She couldn’t help but admit that she is kind of lonely deep in her heart.

In the meantime, there are guys trying to approach her and treat her well. At the beginning, she pushes them out of the door because she doesn’t have any feelings on them. Gradually, impatience triggers her to waver. She tries to start a relationship with a guy that treats her nice, while she isn’t really into him. Why? Because she can’t stand the loneliness, she misses the feeling of being loved.

After a few months, she thought the boy’s love towards her could make her fall deeper in love. Sadly, she couldn’t keep forcing herself to love someone that has no feeling exist. Eventually, she left the guy with guilty.

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After all, some people in the world are lucky to find their Mrs./Mr. Right in the early stage. While the rest need to overcome failures of love experiences, including the patience of waiting, until they meet their right one at the right time.  Every time we love, we need courage to take another risk. There are two results of a relationship, either stick together forever or break-up. Some people are afraid of the latter result so they refuse to try. It is because these people most probably have experienced the hurt caused by break-ups, and their scars haven’t fully recovered. Time, is the only thing they need. How long? I have no idea as well, depends on how deep the scars are caused.

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For people out there who are experiencing loneliness, I understand that. You may try very hard to deny that you are lonely, but the fact is you are really feeling lonely. In this case, you got to learn how to cheer yourself up. Bare in mind, you are alone but you are may not be lonely. In our lives, in order to find our true love, we need patience. True love doesn’t come easy, true love is worth waiting for even if it takes a lifetime, but waiting for it will yield a great return, a lifetime of love.

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All good things need a little time. Before the right person and the right time comes, enjoy the time being alone. Try to become a better person in order to meet a better person. And when the time I meet that special person, I will tell him that how glad I’m to meet him, and I will never ever let him go.

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I want you to know that, I’m waiting for you.
I can’t wait to meet you, to see your eyes,
to see your smile and to know about your life.
Wherever you are right now,
what ever you’re doing,
I’m praying for you.
I promise you I will grab your hands to see the world,
wrap my arms around your shoulder, and hold you close to me at night.
I can’t wait to love you, adore you, cherish you and take care of you.
I can’t wait to meet you,
and show you this message in the future when we finally meet.
But for now, I want you to know.
I’m waiting for you…

With love,
Ange Gardien xx

Merry little christmas

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Here comes the most beautiful time of the year! Merry Christmas everybody =).
Christmas is a festival of celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ. I’m so thankful and blessed by the guidance of God in 2013. It can’t be more blissful to spend Christmas time with our beloved ones. This year, I feel so peaceful to share my moments with my beloved family.

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Everyone has their own wishes on Christmas. I am a December girl and therefore I have two wishes for my birthday and Christmas in December hehee lol One of my wishes has achieved. Hopefully the other one could be achieved soon =).
I wish one day, I could gather all my best friends with my beloved to have great fun at the party. My best friends will bring along their partners, we play board games and exchange presents together. It sounds really happy, doesn’t it? I really hope this could happen in the near future!

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Christmas also reminds me the new year is coming. Nothing new but true, I hope new year 2014 could treat me good. Over the past year, I have grown up a lot. I used to tear a lot whenever I feel weak. Through the ups and downs, I start to realize that it’s the time for me to grow up and be a STRONG girl. Being strong doesn’t mean you’ll never get hurt. It means even when you get hurt, you’ll never let it defeat you. Negativity may knock at your door, but you can choose not to let it in. To be honest, as a girl, I always wanted to have someone for me to rely on. However, I believe being independent also means you’re strong enough to wait for what you deserve. And I promise, I will become a better girl in the coming year.

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Sometimes we may feel lonely, especially during the season of love such as Christmas. I absolutely understand this feeling of temporary loneliness. However, let’s be positive! Try to be grateful for what you have at the moment. Cherish what you already had and spend more quality time with your beloved ones. Don’t let regret happens at the time you realize you can never go back to the moment you wish to spend with that person. Be faithful to God, I’m sure one day the special moment with our beloved ones will appear to both you and me.

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Once again, Merry Christmas everyone! =)
I hope we all have a wonderful year in the coming new year 2014. Don’t forget to EAT, PRAY and LOVE.

Love xoxo,
Ange Gardien

Hard to be soft, tough to be tender.

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The world is so quiet tonight. Turning on your favorite night light, your mama tucks you in bed with a big warm blanket. Your little hand is wrapped around her finger, and she starts reading you bedtime story. “Once upon a time…” Your little eyelids starts to flutter, because you are falling asleep and starts dreaming. Every night seems wonderful and peaceful, there are sweet dreams full of candies and laughter.

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough… You start missing the days when you were a little kid full of innocence. Your parents won’t let nobody hurt you, won’t let no one break your heart, and no one will desert you.

By the time you gradually grow up, you start to experience lost of lives, broke ups, betrayal… You experienced the loudest silence of heartbreaking ever in your life. In the meantime, you seek for comforts from close friends. Despite you may feel a bit better afterwards, eventually, you realize the one who truly understand you is still you.

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Don’t get me wrong. I believe someday, somewhere, at some point in our lives we will meet our beloved ones who will handle your worst and deserve you at your best. It just takes time and patience.

However, lives are full of ups and downs before you come to an happy ending. Before meeting your Mr. Right, you try your best to become a better person. Many people have tried to do good for others, believing that what goes around comes around. You may have given more than taken, thus being good unconditionally without asking for returns.

Until one day, people around you think you are soft enough to be controlled. They start to take advantages from you. You start to think, the world is ruled only by consideration of advantages. People whom you have known for many years seem to become strangers in one night. You wish you would never grow up in this city, and everything could back to simple.

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Everything seems screwed up when you realize your effort are not appreciated by people around you. But my dear, don’t be afraid. Be that strong girl that everyone knew would make it through the worst. Be that fearless girl, the one who would dare to do anything. Be that independent girl who didn’t need a man. Be the girl who never backed down.

I know what it’s like to feel alone, and like no one is there. I know what it feels like to just have one person tell you, “I’ve got your back no matter what.” Be true to the one who truly loves and care for you. Don’t choose the one who is beautiful to the world. But rather, choose the one who makes your world beautiful.

Remember, what goes around comes around.

Love xoxo,
Ange Gardien